"free time"

I've been so busy, nonstop, for the past year I'm going a little crazy having this "free time". So far I've finished two books, planted a tomato and herb garden, gone to a physical comedy/clown workshop, done make-up for a friend's photo shoot, and spent hours wasting away over the keyboard. Yet why is it that when I have all this time to work on projects alone I still feel paralyzed and like I'm not doing enough??

Here's a list of things I want to do in the next several weeks:

Clean the house -- for real.
Make some costumes. I have big plans for an Afghani Nomad Dress in all the colors of the rainbow...
Make some collages with the images I've been collecting over the past couple of years.
Learn how to edit on the computer.
Make some 5 minute short videos.
Catch up on some reading.
Go to Reno to visit my dad.
Go to NY.
Go to SF and Humboldt County.





Whew, see why I'm having an anxiety attack? Now instead of doing anything productive, I'm going to see a silly movie.

I'm gonna try not to
feel guilty about it.

update

Haven't blogged in so long. I'm enjoying my summer vacation. Still have to go to work a couple days a week, so it's not a total vacation, but I do have much more free time now that my semester is over.

I did some gardening the other day! So nice. I love the way potting soil smells. I planted some lavender in our window boxes as well as some bright fuchsia geraniums. I tried to nurse some of my neglected house plants back to life. I re-potted all of them. They look great and should start thriving again soon. My dream is to cover our entire living room with hanging plants and ferns. Increase the oxygen, you know. Pretend I'm an elf living in the rain forest.



I went to the dentist today. Found out I had a cavity and had to get a very expensive filling. Boy do I wish I had dental insurance. It cost me three hundred bucks! Sheesh. I'd rather pay now than later though if you know what I mean.



Went to the Eden's Edge show at the Hammer yesterday. Anna Sew Hoy's work looked great. Also got to see my friend Matthew Monahan's drawings and sculptures. Amazing. I really liked Liz Craft's funny bronze hippie sculpture a lot, too.

MB has a video installation up at the Steve Turner Contemporary right now. If you want to check it out it's at 6026 Wilshire Blvd. across from LACMA. We're in the show, Past Over, with Mary Kelly and Sam Durant.

This Sunday I'm doing a physical comedy and clown class.